Be truly happy!

For people that know me, the next statement is not going to be something that takes you by surprise. For quite a while now, I have been hoping to be a mother. I have been waiting and waiting for children and sometimes it has gotten hard, very hard. It is something that both my husband and I want and we have prayed together, sat up late nights, talked to friends, everything. We've even had a few times when we thought we were pregnant only to receive contrary news from the doctor. Those have been some pretty hard times but my personal hardest times would come on Mother's day. 

For the past 3 Mother's Days, I have opted to stay home where I can just be to myself because it has honestly been painful to be out on that day, constantly confronted with the fact that it had been another whole year, 365 days, 12 months, countless hours and we were still not parents. Don't get me wrong, I love my Mom and we would all have dinner together and she would get presents from us. That would all happen later in the day and in the safety of family that knew the deal and it was never a discussion. This year though, God put it on my heart that its not even about the pain or hurt that I am feeling, its all about Him and His glory. God gave me an opportunity to realize that I could step outside of myself and see things how they are. Yes, I have a desire but yes He will fill that in His perfect time so until that time, be an example and a willing and yielded vessel that God can use. So, I made up my mind (with a little higher power help!) that I would go to church on Mother's Day. 

As I was on my way to church, God gave me a desire to give cards to our friends who were mothers. I have to admit, He comes up with some good ideas! So off to the store I went and my husband and I gave out a few cards to some of the mothers that we know. Don't you know that when I stopped focusing on what I was feeling, God enabled me to be a blessing to someone else.  It seems that people really liked the cards. Isn't that something! That truly made us feel good that we could help someone else feel good. 

After all that God showed me this scripture, Colossians 1:11 (cev) 'His glorious power will make you patient and strong enough to endure anything, and you will be truly happy.' I can say that I am truly happy. I have a wonderful husband that keeps life fun, wonderful family all around and sitting in church Sunday I realized that I have been really really blessed because we have two beautiful God children and we love them dearly! Our god-daughter walked up to me Sunday and gave me a giant hug! It was priceless! 

For those of us who are going through things, just know that when you are God's child, He has your back. It may not seem like it or feel like it or look like it but He does. He has proven this to me in many different areas of my life and now He has given me yet another weapon to use when the enemy tries to tell me otherwise, Colossians 1:11. Be truly happy!